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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

A Loss Of Identity Mowni - Translated by Albert Franklin - From "Tamil Short Stories", Selected and Edited by Ka.Naa. Subramanyam, Authors Guild of India Cooperative Society, First Edition (1978). - Contributed by Sundara Pandian


He awoke suddenly, wide awake in the night, cleanly awake, as if something had startled him. Trailing across the edges of his consciousness like tatters of dream were junctures and disjunctures, meetings and partings of his entire life. Outside in the breathless dark, the sibilant cry of some nightbird faded, answered by, or answering, the sharp scolding of the owls. The steps of a man, perhaps two, passing along the street in that unseasonable hour before dawn seemed to fade without disturbing the surface of the silence. Beggars huddled in sleep on the walk below. Far into the night, till sleep had come, they had gossiped, now and then shouting uproariously, coughing, coughing their way toward beggar death. Now they would sleep until daylight. Why hadn't his life with her ended with the same sweetness it had had at the beginning? What had made events follow a course which confirmed the passing suspicion that had fallen between them? The world indeed blamed her, but was she really to be blamed for moving about in the world, showing her sweet beauty, delighting all who might see her wherever she went? He wasn't sure. The blackness of the night in his room was overpowering. He opened the window, pushed aside the shutter, and looked out. The immense expanse of the universe seemed to extend before him. Townlights merged with stars, as if the stars had come down from the sky to parade in long lines in the streets. He wanted to retrace in his mind just what had happened at the evening before, to get a clear idea of how it all had gone. 4 To do this, he would have to gather the long shadows cast by things to come and piece them together with memories of things long past and forgotten. * * * * * * * It had all started evening before last when he had run into him at the corner of the side street. That had been unexpected. "Hello there! What a surprise to find you here! I never dreamed..." There must have been some meaning behind these excessive reactions. You could tell by his face, his manner, that he was living on the top of the world. Could it be that *she* was living with him now? He had asked for his address, noted it down, promising to call on him the following afternoon at half past four. Then he had hurried away. The dull yellow of the lowering sun had glowed for a moment in the street and quickly faded. His upstairs room was larger than he needed for himself alone. From up there, through windows looking in all directions, he could see off into the sky as well as look down to see what was going on in the village. But he had to stumble and grope up a long steep staircase to get to his room. The anticipated difficulty of getting back up usually quenched his impulse to get out on the street and wander around the village. Holding the shutter, he gazed out into the distance. He could see the first gray of the dawn. The evening before, from four o' clock on, in his excitement over the expected visit, he had begun to worry that the hour would come and the visitor not arrive. The effect of this had been to cause him to cease to focus on the exact time the visitor had promised to come, as if to console himself with the thought that it was not yet really late. And, then it often happens that, when one was waiting for someone, the identity of the person one is waiting for slips from one's mind. Couples with their children had been pouring in a flood down the street toward the seashore. What a fuss they made, and how they decked themselves out to wash away the humdrum of their lives with a few minutes in the sea breeze! The sky too, as if preparing for a celebration in the heavens, held a special clarity, poised for sunset and the sharp plunge into darkness. 5 The street lights,not yet lit, ranged along the street in regular files to a distant vanishing point. The time had come. The silence in the room had become a torture. It had been impossible to stay there quietly and wait. He had made his way down into the street. He had moved along staring intently at each passer-by so that his visitor would not pass without his seeing him. He had sidled up to a man wearing a wrist-match and asked, "Sir! the correct time, please?" The man had given him a side-long glance, looked at his watch, and mumbled something to the effect that he was always forgetting to wind his watch and it had stopped. Then the man had said, "It must be about four-thirty. In any case, it's not after five", and had gone away. He had considered going back to his room. Perhaps his vistor would already be there waiting for him, perhaps even sitting in his armchair, ready to chide him for having made him wait so long when he had arrived exactly on time. Walking along, pondering over how he would answer that the idea of returning his room had slipped from his mind. The thought came to him that, on coming out, he had only closed his door, not locked it. He had gone on walking down the road. He had come to a house within a garden wall. Walking past, he had found himself watching a beautiful young woman on the veranda languidly turning tha pages of a book. Her reading and the play of her imagination were reflected in her features. It had occurred to him to walk straight up to her that he had come exactly six o' clock as agreed, and that if she was bored, he was not to blame. But a doubt flashed in his mind whether he could become "him" to her, and he had walked on. It seemed absurd that life should ensnare one in such hazards through unexpected occurrences. Cars whizzed past, along the street and across the crossings, sometimes even grazing him. The street lights had not yet been lit. Then the milk woman had come up to him in the street and he had stopped short. She had smiled at him and spoken "Why Sir! what on earth are you doing out so early in the evening! You even forgot I was coming to your room!" At first he had considered taking her back to the room with him. But what if his visitor is 6 there waiting for him? What if he should see them together? He had dropped that idea and considered whether to tell her to go there herself and leave some milk. Then he had said, "I don't need anything today. You don't have to go to the room", and had walked off, basking in the sun of her smile, "Poor thing, how she loves me!" * * * * * * * * Aimless wandering, earnestly pursued, finds its own goal somewhere beyond the limits of intention. The railway station was there before him, glittering with a thousand lights. He stood awhile looking at it. Then somehow he was caught in its pull and became an atom in its bustling crowd. Railway stations usually give an impression of isolation and helplessness. Both in their empty moments and their crowded ones, they are essentially sheds for people coming or going on the railway. But a great railway terminus is the point of origin and the point of return for travellers. From here, trains move out in all directions and return here again. People set out from this place to everywhere; people come to this place from every- where to take up new lives, new relationships. In such a place as this many people become detached from their essential natures, their souls, and here also those natures become lodged in other beings. A beginning-ending place, a place of crowds, noise, and straining, itself unshaken, a lofty, enigmatic shrine. At that moment there was a great surge in the crowd, an enormous confusion in which some arriving passengers became thoroughly mingled with a crowd waiting to leave. Noise seemed to come from everywhere. One seemed to be part of the noise. Forms seen and unseen, sound heard and unheard, all these rolled together into one great confusion, one great undifferentiated mass of noise, which rose and rose and broke as a wave breaks on the beach. Then each shap, each sound, each word or name seemed to have lost its harmony, slipped from its place, so that the senses could not grasp the message the mind seemed to be trying to convey. One of the trains about to depart seemed to be waiting, delaying unintentionally, purposely flaunting the temptation to travel. Its intended occupants swarmed and whirled about it, peering into it here and there, looking for a place. Some were 7 already packed sardine-like inside the train, some were clinging to the steps and windows, others had even climbed onto the roof. Those who could not find a hold were giving vent to their frustration by shinnying up the posts, onto the platform shelter, even onto the roof of the station, like a frolic of blind monkeys. The engine stood belching smoke in a monstrous plume, snarling and gasping its exasperation at not being allowed to move now that it was ready. The cars strung out behind it were a massive braid of human beings. Departure was announced and the police moved into impose order. They dragged those they could reach off the train, beat them, and drove them away. Some of these circled back to get a new hold everywhere else. Jolting first back, then forward, the train lurched to a start, shaking off several passengers. Those who failed to get a new hold, ran alongside until they dropped from exhaustion. In all this confusion, somehow or other, he had got on the train. He was crouched in a luggage rack. He pulled his knees up, rested his head on them and went to sleep. Whenever the train stopped or slowed down anywhere at all, passengers who had gotten on the train apparently for no particular reason, suddenly found some new reason to get off, and disappeared into the darkness. Now that he had more room in the luggage rack, he strectehd out his legs and fell into a deep sleep. He opened his eyes and raised his body up. Shreds of dream fluttered in his consciousness; he had the feeling that he himself was a dream- image. A mischievous smile on a sleepy face was looking up at him from below as if waiting to speak to him. Smiling-face said, "That conductor came through while we were sleeping. He thought we looked like people who would not be travelling without tickets, so he didn't disturb us. He won't come back.. " He patted his shirt pocket. No ticket there! He couldn't remember either buying or not buying one, or even starting out on this voyage. He suspected that if he had bought one, smiling- face had picked his pocket in his sleep. The conductor might come. He'd better get away from there. He dug his fingers into his scalp as if he drag himself off by his hair. The train was crawling past a small flag-stop platform 8 apparently uncertain whether it had been flagged or not. The carriage he was on came almost to a stop in an open field. He prepared himself, calculated its speed, and swung down neatly and expertly before it stopped. He had no luggage to hinder him. As the train stopped and moved on, he looked sharply about and sensed, rather than saw that there was no one else there but him. But in that black void, the darkness itself seemed to glow and to illuminate objects and forms. Then this strange brightness would merge again with the dark. He heard a sound like the searing outcry of a soul parted from its body but still torn by its involvement, its bondage to earth and the flesh. This dark, this death, this clarity, all gave the impression of being what they were not, as if slipping from their true natures. The severed head of a rooster, unable to find its own body, seemed to attach itself to whatever was near and unnatural- ly herald the dawn. A datepalm, a coconut tree, a goat, a cow, a man: in that eerie half-light might not any of them serve as cock's body, a crow cock's crow? Even if one were aware of the cause of this slipping from role to role, how could one avoid it? Perhaps in perceiving the world itself as just such a slip, just such a mistake, one could. * * * * * * * * A little before full daylight the milk woman knocked and shouted at his door, but he didn't get up. He lay as if immersed in the world of his dream, as if bemused with the thought that it might be an extension of someone else's dream. The milk woman called so loud he certainly should have heard, but he did not. It would be a mistake to wait for him any longer, the milk woman thought, and went on her way.
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     Literary Profile: Mowni

                       M. Sundaramoorthy




S. Mani (1907- 1985), who wrote under the pen  name  'Mowni',  is
one  of  the  rare writers of 20th century Tamil fiction with his
unique contributions of short stories. He was born at  Semmangudi
village  in  Thanjavur district, home of few other noted artists,
including the  famous  carnatic  vocalist,  Semmangudi  Srinivasa
Iyer.  He  had  his high school education in Kumbakonam and lived
there for fourteen years, since his marriage. He  then  moved  to
Chidhambaram  permenantly to look after his family properties.

Mowni had a Bachelor's degree in Mathematics, but he did not take
up  any job. He was very fond of classical music, had very strong
exposure to western literature, and showed deep interest in Indi-
an  philosophy. His creative power was enriched by his analytical
ability obtained through science education, his artistic mind due
his  love  for music, foresight as a result of his deep knowledge
in philosophy and literary awareness from his exposure to western
fiction.

He  started  writing  (in  mid  30s) around the  same  period  as  
Pudumaipithan and Ku.Pa.Rajagopalan. His earlier stories appeared
in `maNikkodi', widely recognised as avant-grade of Modern  Tamil
fiction. The `maNikkodi trio', Pudumaipithan, Ku.Pa.Ra. and Mowni
are considered to be the leaders of the movement that shaped  the
art  of  short  story in Tamil. They  represented  three entirely 
different trends of short story writing and left a legacy of rich
writings.  However,  unlike the other two, who inspired scores of
writers to continue their trends, Mowni stands alone, without any
predecessor  or successor, that is considered both as his success
and  failure.  This  is  one  of the few reasons that brought him 
extreme criticisms: some recognize him as a great writer and some
others do not.


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It is often said that his becoming a writer  was  accidental.  He
himself  insisted  that  he  never  had any intention of writing,
though he was very much interested in literature and involved  in
literary  discussions  with  his  friends. It was B.S.Ramaiah who
suggested at their first meeting in 1933, during an informal chat
in  a  group of friends that Mowni could make a good writer if he
had tried. This suggestion steeped in his mind for  more  than  a
year  and  wrote five short stories and a long story at a stretch
in late 1935 out of curiosity. He was not keen about  publishing,
but  gave  them  to a friend to comment. To his astonishment, his
friend praised them of very high standard and were new to  Tamil.
He  handed  them  over  to  B.S.Ramaiah  who  was  the  editor of
`maNikkodi'  at  that  time.  The  first  one  `En?'  appeared in 
February  '36 issue with the pseudonyme Mowni, who was originally 
S.Mani.

Mowni's  stories  are  based  on  the uncertainity of human life,  
human relations and their manifestations  like  love, disappoint- 
ment, failure, death etc. The theme for most of  his  stories  is  
the  love  between  man and  woman (to be precise, boy and girl).
Though  most  of his stories  appear to be built on the manifest-
ations of romantic experiences, they pervade through  many dimen-
sions of human  life. They  are not  stereotype love  stories nor 
do they move towards the  marriage of the people involved, family 
etc., which is commonly the case with the romantic stories. (Only 
one of his stories, `kudumbaththEr' is based on family life). The 
relationships  are  beyond physical attraction and sexual appeal, 
and there is hardly any physical description of the characters in 
his stories. They hide behind the abstract  images  characterized  
by the feelings and thoughts of their inner minds that are beyond
the common experiences manifested by the materialistic  life.  He
successfully  portrays  the characters through their feelings and
thoughts and introduces them in the dark or twilight by which  he
could  avoid  the  narrations of their physical features. Most of
his stories are set in dawn or dusk.  His characters wander in  a
world  that  is  in between real and dream worlds, without strong
attachment to the materialistic world. The stories  often  change
between realistic and metaphysical worlds.

His characters  lack  strong  social  identities  and  hence  the
stories  as such lack the social character. The characters do not
represent any particular section of the society and  the  stories


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do  not  portray the life of any particular class and discuss any
social issues. Essentially his creative world is romanticised one
and  does  not  have  the  social  and political dimensions.  His
stories are  synthesis  of  semi-realism  and  romanticism.  This
brought  him  strong  criticism  from  left  wing critics that he
lacked social concern.

The `form' of his stories is one of the main  reasons  for  their
success.  His  stories  are  sculptured  meticulously  with great
artistic touch. His story-telling techniques  and  the  narrative
power  definitely  added  a new dimension to the prose writing in
Tamil.

Mowni's stories are very difficult to  comprehend  at  the  first
reading  because of their unique nature both in form and content.
Several reapeated readings are needed  to  fully  appreciate  his
stories and with each reading they are capable of unveiling a new
dimension and providing a new experience.

He wrote five short stories in late  1935  and  added  nine  more
between  1936  and 39. He did not write anything for a decade. He
wrote two short stories at the request of his contemporary writer
M.V.  Venkatram  in  1948 that appeared in `thEnee' magazine.  He
stopped writing again  till  1954.  Afterwards,  he  occasionally
wrote short stories and the last one `thavaRu' appeared in 'kasa-
dathapaRa' in 1971 (the translation  of  this   story,  `Loss  of
identity',  is included in this issue). During a span of 35 years
of his literary career he wrote only  two  dozen  short  stories,
which is surprisingly small.

Mowni's  first  short  story  collection  `azhiyaac  chudar'  was  
published  in  1959, the second one `Mowniyin kadhaigaL'  in 1967 
and  the   last  one in 1973.  A complete  edition Mowni's works, 
comprising 24 short stories, his only interview (`dheepam',1967), 
a memoir about B.S. Ramaiah, the editor of `maNikkodi' (  `enakku
peyar vaiththavar', 'B.S. Ramaiah 60 aaNdu niRaivu malar', 1965),
a memoir on his village ('Semmangudi: than oor thEdal', 'aanandha
vikatan',  1968)  and a couple of essays by Ka.Naa.Subramanyam on
Mowni, was published by Peacock Publications, recently (1991).

Described as "Thirumoolar of Tamil Short Story"  by  his  contem-
porary  writer  Pudumaipithan, Mowni occupies a distinct place in
the annals of Tamil literature.








 - Translated by Albert Franklin

 - From  "Tamil  Short  Stories",  Selected and Edited by Ka.Naa.
   Subramanyam, Authors Guild of India Cooperative Society, First
   Edition (1978).

 - Contributed by Sundara Pandian